1. I am Roopa Deepak from now J
2. I am 18 and I would always be [Sshhh, this is for YOUR eyes only] (but people around me don’t even believe that I am 8). Giggle ;)
3. I am a software engineer, although I don’t see myself as one. I really don’t fit myself in that position (mind you, I am quite good at programming).
4. I had a beautiful and the world’s best sister (she is no more). And I miss her.
5. I am currently married and love the status. Oh yeah, life is still not complicated, no wonder I love my status.
6. I love animals. I like to keep pets at home. Love cats the most.
7. I am a typical Cancerian and am fickle minded.
8. Sticky at times.
9. I am a classical dancer.
10. I have many friends.
11. I love red, black, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, white, yellow, blue, pink, orange, errrr… I love colors. After all, what’s life without colors?
12. I am the most pampered child at home and the same thing continues outside too. So, I like to call myself a pampered princess, because, that’s how I live!
13. I cry when I am angry (usually I don’t cry easily). And the last thing I would do is to stop talking to the person whom I ma angry with (until my anger comes down), doesn’t matter for how long. There are instances when I have not talked to my close friends and family members for months together!!!!
14. I am a good listener.
15. Problems make my life adventurous.
16. I believe in God.
17. I hate it when people take me for granted. My body language, if not my words, would tell them I can be tough.
18. I am egoistic but friendly. I don’t hold grudges.
19. I love procrastinating. It’s an old habit.
20. I am hyperactive at times and speak very fast when I explain stuff I am passionate about.
21. I am very much in to art. Acting, dancing (also happens to be my zeal), singing, painting are my interests.
22. I love to write. Dream to write a book of my own one day!!
23. An optimist, I love life and like helping people solve their problems and very versatile.
24. I love to use a lot of ‘I’ in sentences. I am a very proud person. I get proud for very simple reasons. Like, my existence makes me proud. It takes a lot to depress me.
25. I get excited for small happiness.
26. I loooooooooooooooove ICE-CREAMS!! And I loooooooooooooooooooove Deepak more than ICE-CREAMS!!!!!
Actually, I don’t get tired talking about myself. I rather love it. So, I never realized I have written 26 instead of 25 ;)
Monday, March 02, 2009
And the life begins…
It was around 8:30PM or 9PM on a Tuesday (precisely, 16th Dec’08 ) night. We were in Deepu’s house. We were all sitting in the living room and chatting while Deepu was browsing channels on TV. His phone rang. He answered the call. His mother was calling from Mysore. She said, “Mini has been admitted to the hospital”. I could see his forehead lines getting sharper. He still managed to be in command and spoke calm.
After hanging the call, he just prayed to god and turned back to me. He had just started to explain to me about the phone call, this time my phone rang. Mini had called me this time. When I heard her voice, I could sense the ting of worry, nervousness, fear, happiness, excitement- a mixture of emotions. I tried to console her, tried build her courage up and wished her all my luck. When the call was over, nervousness had crept over me too! For a moment, we all were numb and silent. None of us knew what to say to each other.
We had clearly informed over phone that for any concerns, they can always call us, no matter what time it is. As usual, I took a leave from there and went home. I told my parents about the matter too. Instantly, my amma and doddamma also prayed to god. My amma got tensed too. She asked me to keep my cell in the normal mode (Generally I switch to silent mode when I go to sleep). I did. That night everyone at home almost saw every hour of the clock. We were waiting for the news and there was none!
I drowsed into sleep in the early morning. And when I got up, the clock was showing 10AM. My mom curiously came to my bed and asked me whether I had any update. I checked my cell. I had no message, no call!!! The anxiety took over again. I immediately called Deepu and he said, “Mini had a baby girl in the morning at 9:15AM”. I was overwhelmed!! I congratulated him, couldn’t speak anything more. My family rejoiced with us too. All were happy. The anxiety no longer prevailed. And the life continued…
I spent the day thinking of the baby. When I spoke to my mother-in-law (of course, still would be), she just said, the baby was cute, fair and plump. That was not enough for me. I was eagerly waiting for an angel. And when she had come, I had no patience to wait any longer to see her.
I spoke to my sister-in-law (obviously, she is also still would be ;)), the next day, she also could not give me the right picture of the baby. The curiosity in me had by now grew up like a sky scrapper. All these days, whenever I spoke to Deepu, I spoke of the baby. He did not enjoy the news as much as I did, because, he was worried about his sister. He wanted to just see her once and feel that she is completely fine. Then shall he celebrate and welcome the new born.
So, we decided to go to Mysore on Saturday. Due to various reasons, it got postponed to Sunday. I could barely sleep on Saturday night. Sunday morning, by 9AM, I was at Deepu’s place and when we actually started to Mysore, it was 9:30AM and none of us knew what was waiting for us?!! We drove all the way talking everything under the sky but nothing about the baby or the mother.
And when we reached there!!!!!!!!!!! There was the biggest BONANZA!!! I saw the baby and my eyes sparkled with happiness! I could not wait for a second more to take her in my arms. I lifted her and observed her carefully. She was very blissful. Round face, chubby cheeks, fair complexion, jet black eyes, fairly long limbs, as tender as…. What??? There is no match to it. The baby was soooooooooooooooooo cute. Her ears, feet, fingers, skin, hairs everything spoke of beauty at its extreme. I could not stop looking at her. I touched her all over. She was soft. I kissed her forehead. She looked at me with half opened eyes and my happiness hit the peak!
The angel
Every aspect of her was a wonder for us. The way she was sleeping silent, the way she stretched her body when she got up, the way she moved her eyes around, the way she cried, the way she gulped the polio drops, the way she made faces at us… Ohhhhhhhhhhhh!!! There are many. All her actions were special in all ways. She took us through a different world in just the few hours we spent there.
Later, with profuse unwillingness, we had to come back. All the while we drove back we could not help but talk about the baby, her tenderness, her beauty, her activities… She had managed to put us all into a fantasy world where everything seemed gorgeous. There was no room for anything unpleasant there.
With still one week to go for her to come here, I am now jotting the things to be shopped for her, and (of course, with more pleasure, dreams and aspirations) the life continues… Actually, and the life begins…
After hanging the call, he just prayed to god and turned back to me. He had just started to explain to me about the phone call, this time my phone rang. Mini had called me this time. When I heard her voice, I could sense the ting of worry, nervousness, fear, happiness, excitement- a mixture of emotions. I tried to console her, tried build her courage up and wished her all my luck. When the call was over, nervousness had crept over me too! For a moment, we all were numb and silent. None of us knew what to say to each other.
We had clearly informed over phone that for any concerns, they can always call us, no matter what time it is. As usual, I took a leave from there and went home. I told my parents about the matter too. Instantly, my amma and doddamma also prayed to god. My amma got tensed too. She asked me to keep my cell in the normal mode (Generally I switch to silent mode when I go to sleep). I did. That night everyone at home almost saw every hour of the clock. We were waiting for the news and there was none!
I drowsed into sleep in the early morning. And when I got up, the clock was showing 10AM. My mom curiously came to my bed and asked me whether I had any update. I checked my cell. I had no message, no call!!! The anxiety took over again. I immediately called Deepu and he said, “Mini had a baby girl in the morning at 9:15AM”. I was overwhelmed!! I congratulated him, couldn’t speak anything more. My family rejoiced with us too. All were happy. The anxiety no longer prevailed. And the life continued…
I spent the day thinking of the baby. When I spoke to my mother-in-law (of course, still would be), she just said, the baby was cute, fair and plump. That was not enough for me. I was eagerly waiting for an angel. And when she had come, I had no patience to wait any longer to see her.
I spoke to my sister-in-law (obviously, she is also still would be ;)), the next day, she also could not give me the right picture of the baby. The curiosity in me had by now grew up like a sky scrapper. All these days, whenever I spoke to Deepu, I spoke of the baby. He did not enjoy the news as much as I did, because, he was worried about his sister. He wanted to just see her once and feel that she is completely fine. Then shall he celebrate and welcome the new born.
So, we decided to go to Mysore on Saturday. Due to various reasons, it got postponed to Sunday. I could barely sleep on Saturday night. Sunday morning, by 9AM, I was at Deepu’s place and when we actually started to Mysore, it was 9:30AM and none of us knew what was waiting for us?!! We drove all the way talking everything under the sky but nothing about the baby or the mother.
And when we reached there!!!!!!!!!!! There was the biggest BONANZA!!! I saw the baby and my eyes sparkled with happiness! I could not wait for a second more to take her in my arms. I lifted her and observed her carefully. She was very blissful. Round face, chubby cheeks, fair complexion, jet black eyes, fairly long limbs, as tender as…. What??? There is no match to it. The baby was soooooooooooooooooo cute. Her ears, feet, fingers, skin, hairs everything spoke of beauty at its extreme. I could not stop looking at her. I touched her all over. She was soft. I kissed her forehead. She looked at me with half opened eyes and my happiness hit the peak!
The angel
Every aspect of her was a wonder for us. The way she was sleeping silent, the way she stretched her body when she got up, the way she moved her eyes around, the way she cried, the way she gulped the polio drops, the way she made faces at us… Ohhhhhhhhhhhh!!! There are many. All her actions were special in all ways. She took us through a different world in just the few hours we spent there.
Later, with profuse unwillingness, we had to come back. All the while we drove back we could not help but talk about the baby, her tenderness, her beauty, her activities… She had managed to put us all into a fantasy world where everything seemed gorgeous. There was no room for anything unpleasant there.
With still one week to go for her to come here, I am now jotting the things to be shopped for her, and (of course, with more pleasure, dreams and aspirations) the life continues… Actually, and the life begins…
Title for this post still under construction ;)
Sometimes in life, we all come across situations which would force us to think so much about the nominal incident also that our brain will be almost dead at the end of it!!
I am not able to figure out as to what to call it! Coincidence? Neh. Errrrrrrr ummmmmmmmmmmm, Illusion, well, nope. Then what else?? I will use that as the title for this post once I decide about it.
Well, coming to what led me to so much bewilderment today; here is a very small incident that happened to me lately.
Since my school days, I had a very good friend by name Suma. She had a sister by name Shubha, who also was my close friend. We three were thick close!! Soon after I got into Engineering, I lost contact with both of them. We never fought, we dint have any problems with each other either, yet, we stopped talking. We also dint exchange smiles if at all we crossed by. There was no hate-redness. Yet, there was a sort of uneasiness.
It was years, that I not even had thought of them. And these days, I am seeing Shubha very frequently!!
It started off from mid October. On a weekend after Diwali, I was walking down from Gandhi Bazaar along with Deepthi (one of my old friends) and I saw a lady in her yellow salwar sitting on a bike giving me an annoyed look (well, I am not sure whether it was anger, but, I felt so). It took me some time to recognize her. She was Shubha!!
Then, 2nd November, Sunday. I was again walking in front of UD, Gandhi Bazaar, this time with Deepak and I saw her along with Vinay (her then boy friend and present husband) and her kid. Vinay has changed a lot. He has a put on a lot of weight and looks like an uncle, I felt. He was carrying the baby. This time, although she looked at me, it was a relaxed look. It meant nothing (again I am not sure of this too, I just felt so). I wanted to have a look at the baby too, but, did not have so much time.
And yesterday, again, I was going with appa, near my atte's house in Thyagarajanagar and I saw her along with her mom. She was carrying her baby too. I saw her and I got stunned!! She looked at me as if she is looking at a stranger!!
All the above three incidents put together would have hardly lasted for 5 minutes!!
I started wondering why is it that I am seeing her so frequently now-a-days!!? I know this has no meaning. Yet, I don't know why, I started thinking so much regarding this. But, it was really shocking for me that unexpectedly she comes across and not just once!!! Although I dint want to convey anything out of it, my mind was all the time busy looking for an answer for 'why did she pop up all of a sudden and why does she cross me every time?’.
I had still not found the million dollar answer and today morning, as usual, while my appa was dropping me to office, I was sitting back and watching around. I saw a lady in her red salwar, holding a kid's hand. The kid was dressed up in a school uniform. The lady was holding a bag in her other hand. She had a blunt cut and wore a BIG stud in her nose. I dint know why my eyes stopped at her and she also looked at me constantly. I found her very familiar!!! And I had already crossed 2-3km from there when I realized that the lady was Divya, my school mate. A common friend of me and Deepthi (Deepthi also happen to be my school mate)!!!!!!!!!!!
Some sort of chemical reaction started in my brain now. I know things like this happen in everybody’s life. There will be millions of such incidents happening with many more millions of people in day to day life. In fact, things like this have happened to me also quite a few times in my past.
But, this time it’s different. It’s different because, it made me think about it seriously. It has put me to a state of numbness! It has become significant in spite of its insignificance!! Why?? Well, I have no answer for this.
Unknowingly, unwontedly, I am still thinking of these incidents and trying to make some sense out of it...
Deep inside my heart, I am feeling the incidents mean something. It is giving me a message.
My brain does not agree to it and yet strangely, it is still thinking of these incidents and trying to make some sense out of it...
I am not able to figure out as to what to call it! Coincidence? Neh. Errrrrrrr ummmmmmmmmmmm, Illusion, well, nope. Then what else?? I will use that as the title for this post once I decide about it.
Well, coming to what led me to so much bewilderment today; here is a very small incident that happened to me lately.
Since my school days, I had a very good friend by name Suma. She had a sister by name Shubha, who also was my close friend. We three were thick close!! Soon after I got into Engineering, I lost contact with both of them. We never fought, we dint have any problems with each other either, yet, we stopped talking. We also dint exchange smiles if at all we crossed by. There was no hate-redness. Yet, there was a sort of uneasiness.
It was years, that I not even had thought of them. And these days, I am seeing Shubha very frequently!!
It started off from mid October. On a weekend after Diwali, I was walking down from Gandhi Bazaar along with Deepthi (one of my old friends) and I saw a lady in her yellow salwar sitting on a bike giving me an annoyed look (well, I am not sure whether it was anger, but, I felt so). It took me some time to recognize her. She was Shubha!!
Then, 2nd November, Sunday. I was again walking in front of UD, Gandhi Bazaar, this time with Deepak and I saw her along with Vinay (her then boy friend and present husband) and her kid. Vinay has changed a lot. He has a put on a lot of weight and looks like an uncle, I felt. He was carrying the baby. This time, although she looked at me, it was a relaxed look. It meant nothing (again I am not sure of this too, I just felt so). I wanted to have a look at the baby too, but, did not have so much time.
And yesterday, again, I was going with appa, near my atte's house in Thyagarajanagar and I saw her along with her mom. She was carrying her baby too. I saw her and I got stunned!! She looked at me as if she is looking at a stranger!!
All the above three incidents put together would have hardly lasted for 5 minutes!!
I started wondering why is it that I am seeing her so frequently now-a-days!!? I know this has no meaning. Yet, I don't know why, I started thinking so much regarding this. But, it was really shocking for me that unexpectedly she comes across and not just once!!! Although I dint want to convey anything out of it, my mind was all the time busy looking for an answer for 'why did she pop up all of a sudden and why does she cross me every time?’.
I had still not found the million dollar answer and today morning, as usual, while my appa was dropping me to office, I was sitting back and watching around. I saw a lady in her red salwar, holding a kid's hand. The kid was dressed up in a school uniform. The lady was holding a bag in her other hand. She had a blunt cut and wore a BIG stud in her nose. I dint know why my eyes stopped at her and she also looked at me constantly. I found her very familiar!!! And I had already crossed 2-3km from there when I realized that the lady was Divya, my school mate. A common friend of me and Deepthi (Deepthi also happen to be my school mate)!!!!!!!!!!!
Some sort of chemical reaction started in my brain now. I know things like this happen in everybody’s life. There will be millions of such incidents happening with many more millions of people in day to day life. In fact, things like this have happened to me also quite a few times in my past.
But, this time it’s different. It’s different because, it made me think about it seriously. It has put me to a state of numbness! It has become significant in spite of its insignificance!! Why?? Well, I have no answer for this.
Unknowingly, unwontedly, I am still thinking of these incidents and trying to make some sense out of it...
Deep inside my heart, I am feeling the incidents mean something. It is giving me a message.
My brain does not agree to it and yet strangely, it is still thinking of these incidents and trying to make some sense out of it...
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