Did you smile today!!?????

It’s been a week that I joined this company and there is not a single day that I have not cried to come to office (The last time I remember, I used to cry to go to school during the initial days of my school).

First day (Monday), I somehow managed to spend time, because I had to fill too many forms and undergo lots of joining formalities.

Second day (Tuesday), I tried to study each individual and understand what kind of people they are. I did come out with my thesis on the same. I declared, they are all very conservative, don’t talk, don’t laugh, they are in their own world!!!

Third day (Wednesday), I was given a laptop and some documents. I was going through the same. And by noon, I got my e-mail ID :). I felt like I own a treasure now. I literally had a chat with my previous company friends. Was feeling great! I felt I was missing a great deal coming to this place. I was missing that joy.

Fourth day (Thursday) I was on leave (Evident that I was happy too).

Fifth day (Friday), more or less the same feeling until lunch break. But after that, I heard about some dance performance organized by the company and got busy collecting passes for the same and calling friends who were interested to come and making plans…

Weekend went on really great as I spent my most of the time with a sweet little baby “Chiraag”.

Sixth day (Monday), when I thought of coming to office, I started feeling low. I knew I would come here and sit like a dumb. Doing nothing useful, other than going through the document. No one is of my type. They are all utter boring. But, I had no other choice. I had to come. Good that I had to come :). As usual, I spent one more miserable day in office and was about to move in the evening, that it started raining very heavily. I stood near the door with almost dying, pale face. Cursing the rain all the time. Even after a long wait when the rain dint stop, I came in and sat reading (or rather browsing) the newspaper (I find it real boring!). A few of my friends (from the other teams) came to me and sat with me. We had a good conversation. They were all going by bus, so, they started when the rain reduced a little. I go by 2-wheeler, and was still waiting for the rain to stop. Cursing the rain all the time (all over again!!). Inevitably, I had to come up and sit with my team mates (I thought I would better watch them do some work and learn). Surprisingly, I actually liked every moment I was there with them. We smiled, talked, laughed, pulled each other’s leg, and had great fun. Never realized that the rain stopped completely!! Now I started recognizing myself as one among the team. I felt it was a different team (or a different me!?). What did it require?? The rain? The time? Or the change?? I don not know. But, whatever it is, I thank it for the cause.

Seventh day (Tuesday/Today), although I had a dual mind to come to office, I was not sad. Talking to all of them seems considerably easy now. I now ask for any favor from them easily as if I have known them for a long time. And they too feel pleasured to help me. We keep making fun of each other. Spend some good time with all. And also work at the time of work. Things randomly changed so much for me. And my curiosity was killing me. I was now keen to know what made the difference? In no time, I discovered that the reason behind all this drastic change was “Smile”.

Just like every turning point have a curve, this one also had this gentle curve, universally called smile :). I realize it’s worth now! I had to waste (or rather utilize) one week to understand this fact. Let my experience be a lesson to others. Put one question to yourself everyday, “Did I smile today?”. And find the answer. Because a smile can change life. People always said about me that I am too flexible and I get along with any kind of people pretty well. I don’t know how far it is true. But yeah, I now know that no two individuals are same. Each person has some thing special. Just explore that and see life will be so easy. Even now, if I compare my present team with the previous one, the former one was younger, energetic, fun loving. But, the later is also no less. They are special in their own way. Just one smile is all that required for me to know them as they are and accept them as they are (and yet be happy). Now I feel I am glad that I am here. Because, I have everything, good money, work, people. What more can I ask but this, DID YOU SMILE TODAY?

Right place to work!!(?)

When I started to write blogs, I thought, it will be a good platform for my poems/compositions (if I can call them so… I do scribble whenever I feel like). Now when I look at it, it looks like a repository of the same. Feels nice :)

Today when I am writing this, I am actually sitting in a lab in Bosch and it is just the 3rd day of my job here!!! And, I am typing this in a word document hoping to transfer the same to my blog…

Having just 3yr of work experience, I have seen a lot in professional life (and personal!!??). I started my career in a very small place. We were just a bunch of 10-15 working in the company (including my BOSS – I call him “SIR” with all love and respect). He will be remembered by everyone who meets him for whatever he is (not to mention for all good reasons). Such a person he is. I have always admired his knowledge, patience and teaching skills. He is the only person whom I call teacher (after my school). It was more than just a wonderful experience to work with a gem like him. All went well, except for this fact that I dint have a career growth (in terms of money)!! My destiny just took me to a better place when I was in a crisis and it was too mesmerizing to deny!

I was suddenly into a new company, a big one, of course. BIG in terms of name, and money to a certain extent. I was given a cabin of my own! Phone, internet, what not?? But, work wise, I never was satisfied. I, basically being a very friendly, fun loving person made some good friends there. We literally rocked the place!! Enjoyed all the time with them. Did not last there for long… I could not find peace there. Wanted a break. So, left that job too!

Small company is far better than BIG ones, I thought now. I had work satisfaction and a good number of friends in my 1st company, but, no money. And sadly, money is one of the factors with which a person’s success is measured. BIG companies offer BIG money, but, job satisfaction?? I was not sure. Maybe, not all companies are same. This was my thought process when I sat jobless at home for 15 days. Fortunately (!!?), there was something that came up my way which I felt was the break that I was looking for. I got a chance to train the freshers on C, C++, Unix who were recruited into some BIG company :). I felt like I was back to college. Had a great time with all my trainees. I loved them all and they loved me equally. Never realized how time just flew away… And all my trainees had to move on with their work (Although we are still in touch). I was left with no work again!! I had to go to office, and spend time doing nothing! Back to square one. Meanwhile, certain problems arouse there with the HR people and others too. And most importantly, that place also reminded me of one “person” who became a very important part of my life and went away… I knew him hardly for a few months… But, time really does not matter (looking at all the pain and joyous moment that I have had) when it comes to having feelings for someone. Ohh!! Let me not make it personal (although that influenced me too). The place started looking like hell to me. I started feeling suffocating there. I put down my papers again (without a job in hand)!! I was serving my notice period and meanwhile, I got a job!

Company was again BIG! I had to work at the client’s place which was quite exciting for me. Work was neither very interesting nor bad. I somehow started liking it. Friends!? Worth mentioning, that friendship just happened. Amazingly, we were all like minded people put together in one place. Time again went on partying, having blasts, making merry. Money came into picture again… This time, it was not for me, but, for my family that I was fighting and there was no room to compromise. There was no hike given because the market is low and I gave up the job!

I am here now getting more money than before. The place, work, food, everything is too good out here, except for the team :(. The team is utter boring and conservative. But, I still have to hang on, because, I have a lot to learn here… And of course, the biggest of all reasons, I have good money.

Don’t know what’s hidden in my future. But, after 3 years of work experience (also), I still am struggling hard to find the right place to work!! Wonder does it really exist??