All those times then,
When I used to be in your arms,
Rest my head on your chest and sleep.
All those times then,
When your hand moved gently over my head.
All those times then,
When you held my hand
And pressed your lips on my forehead.
All those times then,
When I was loved and cared by you.
All those times then,
How will I forget them?
Although a dream,
I remember every bit of it
At every moment of my life,
To miss you much more,
And love you even more…

As I walked on the seashore with you,
I liked being with you,
I loved to be loved by you.
My generosity made me gift myself to you.
You had become the reason for my living,
Until all of a sudden,
I was alarmed to see no one beside,
I was walking alone and it mute me to sadness,
As I stood where I was in a perplexed state.
But still, I was not lonely,
Because, all the time your thoughts engaged me,
And you reappeared, and we moved hand in hand,
By and by, you disappeared again,
And this time, I did not stop,
I stepped back and got shocked!!!,
To see all along the way,
My footsteps… and none!

Sailing or Sinking!?

As I was playing with water
I took a handful of it
And saw an image of moon.
I happily concluded I possess it,
And started rejoicing
Jumping, dancing, singing, trying to reach the sky…,
Amidst my pride, I did not notice
That I’m loosing it in drops,
As the water in my hand dripped slowly…
After a while,
When I did not have a single drop of it in my hand
Tears just rolled down my cheeks…,
I looked above dejected,
And could not make out whether,
The moon was sinking or sailing in the sky!?

I arise from the dreams of you
In the first sweet sleep of night
When the winds are breathing low
And the stars are shining bright.
The moon seeking in to steal a glance
And finding you with me in a dream
Quickly hides behind a cloud.
I said, “Dear, I love her”,
It descended down and blesses you with its glow,
The charm on your face smiles in sleep
And I missed a beat,
I knew I will die,
I stopped breathing,
I thought I’ll surely die
And also thought I will die thousand
Deaths to treasure that lifetime moment
So, I stopped breathing,
Until you pressed your lips on mine and made me respire!
And this time, moon went behind the clouds out of shy…

In those cold nights the times we spent
Together will remain unparalleled.
When the desires were bare
And you loved every corner of it
And took them in your strong arms
The moment we were no longer two but one
Everything brightened in darkness
Eyes started brimming out of happiness
After gifting myself entirely to you
And feeling you wholly
I’m finding it difficult to stay away from you
Even for a moment… now!

Dark in woods,
I hear a strange screaming sound,
A fearful night,
Giving rise to haunting thoughts,
With my frightened eyes, undone hairs,
I tremble to step forward alone…
…it was that moment; I realized I need someone to hold my hands
It was that moment; I wanted someone to build up courage in me
It was that moment; I wanted someone’s hands to wipe my tears and caress
And of course, it was that moment;
You stepped ahead and put forward your hands
To hold mine, to wipe my tears, to caress, to extend your help
I was so much moved by your care and concern and your unselfish ways
That I gave away my heart, my love and myself to you…,

Now I feel, life could have been no better!!

How much I remembered you during the day...

It’s since when the mild sunlight
Touch my cheeks to wake me up,
That your remembrances start recurring me!

As I get up yawning and stretch my body,
I remember you.
As I walk to the window and peep out to glance,
I remember you.
As the wind whirls in my undone hairs,
I remember you.
As I feel cold and long for a hug from you,
I remember you.
As the sun starts glaring at me and I bake in it,
I remember you.
As I sink into the memories of some nostalgic events of my life,
I remember you.
As I see the flowers arranged in the vase swaying with wind,
I remember you.
As the sun sets and I stand like a golden idol on hill top,
I remember you.
As I gaze at birds happily getting back to their nests,
I remember you.
As I hear to a melodious song from a distance,
I remember you.
As I get back home and splash water to my face,
I remember you.
As the lights get low and stars blink at me,
I remember you.
As I stand under the dark sky,
Trying to get a glimpse of moon,
Hiding behind the clouds,
I remember you.
As I push myself to bed and try to sleep,
I remember you.
As I think how much I miss you and tears stream down,
I remember you.
As I close my eyes and find you smiling in my heart,
I remember you.
As after a long struggle, a wink of sleep touches me,
And I dream about you,
I remember you.
As I sleep peacefully and moon bless me with its luster,
I remember you.
As the sun comes up the next day,
And you press your lips on my forehead to wake me up,
Happiness vibrate in the entire world of mine,
As I hug you,
I remember…
…how much I remembered you during the day…

What kind of an attraction is this love?
The sheer matter of substance, in the world,
The only meaning of being alive,
What’s kept in life without this?
Flying beyond this emotional succor,
Merely, keeps you in loss!
So, be benefited, be loved, and give your love…,
To the people around you!

How will I express myself,
When you are in front!?
I somehow loose control over myself,
And forget the rest of the world!
I feel certain that no one on earth
Can love you as much as I do!
But, to whom will I express myself,
When you are not in front!?

I want you to be here…, now…,
To share…,
My hidden thoughts,
My overwhelming feelings,
My small happiness,
Big sorrows,
Everlasting pain,
Unexpected loss,
Accidental victory,
My laughter,
My tears,
In short, my life!
So, I want you to be here…, now…, and always…

Beneath the shade of your eye lid,
In the core of your heart,
I discover heaven!
Thus, I like to dwell in there
Just as you tower above the rest
In my heart!!!

My love to you is getting intensified
With each passing day.
I live life with you even in your absence!
While plucking flowers in the garden, I feel the electrifying effect of the
Warmness of your breath in the touch of the wind.
When I recline in your thoughts gazing at the sky,
I see your face sailing gradually from behind the clouds.
When I hear the humming sound of the bee,
I tend to get carried away with it as if
Listening to your words in your tone.
When I wear an elegant dress,
And look up myself in the mirror,
I see you in the image, admiring my beauty.
When I fasten my knot, the hairs falling
On my back gives me the impression of
Your fingers playing on my back.
When I cover myself,
I get to feel I’m in your arms.
When I worship,
I portrait you as my deity.
With so much love, confidence and trust in you,
I can lead the entire life in your thoughts!
But still, when the feeling of your presence
Can make my life so marvelous;
I look forward in wonderment to perceive the difference
Your actual presence brings into my small fantasy world…

Long time...

It’s a long time since I cried,
I haven’t even felt the pain, since a long time.
It’s a long time since I got hurt,
You haven’t even wronged me, since a long time.
It’s a long time since I last made a complaint,
You haven’t even committed any mistake since a long time.
Though you are very much near and dear to me
Happiness is too very far,
I haven’t even received any grief from you,
Since a long time…

With you, I’ve regrets,
I’ve complaints, I’ve confusions;
And with you I’ve love too,
Which always forces me to do anything for you,
My heart arise my thirst for you,
While my brain awake my awareness of the facts,
On one hand, my interests for you push me towards you,
While on the other hand my shyness pulls me back,
My dual thinking has made everything uncertain,
So, I did nothing, but wait for eternity,
And, I believe, in this endless wait,
I’ve forged an effective bond with you,
I’ve had you!!!

Eyes make you see the beauty of the world,
Eyes weave dreams for you,
Eyes express your feelings,
Eyes shed tears,
Tears of happiness;
Tears of grief;
Eyes sparkle when surprised,
Eyes help you notice colors of life,
Eyes when strike,
Results in exchange of thoughts,
Eyes mirror the entire world to you,
And, to the world, it mirrors everything in you!

Life!? Search!?

Life is nothing but a search
Before birth, it search for its way out of the womb,
After birth, it search for its way to its destination
And in course, it is always searching for something or the other.
When in burning sun, it search for a shade,
When in dark, it search for a ray of light,
When in solitary, it search for a companion,
When in trouble, it search for a support,
When in this competitive world, it search for a grand success,
But, whatever it is, it is always searching for peace of mind,
When you have nothing, you want few,
When you get few, you want more,
Then, much more.
When you have this, you want that,
When you have that, you prefer this,then, something else,
You always search for more,
So, life is nothing,
But an endless search…

The letter...

We all know where we start from;
We know the beginning not the end
So, I thought its better I start up
And hence, wrote this letter to you.
I began more ethically;
My first line was hi, hello, how are you,
Second was also a bit formal,
Asking about your parents, family and so on…
Third also went the same way
Asking about your work and your day.
My fourth line was a more matured one,
Saying, what you mean to me,
What I felt for you,
What I expect from you,
What struck me the most in you,
How you impressed me,
And of course, what all I can do for you,
By the time I could take a look at the note
I was somewhere in my fourth page!
There was much more to write;
But the limits did not permit me
I was able to get off a good start
But, dint know how to end.
Shall I say good bye or see you or waiting for your reply…,
Or shall I send with a pigeon and wait for it
To come back to me with your answer…,
I was knocked down by confusions to such an extent that
This incomplete story lies with me since many many long years…

With you...

With you, I could see stars in the day,
And see the rays of the sun kissing
The rosy cheeks of river in the night.
With you, I could hear the flapping
Of wings of a dove flying beyond the clouds.
With you, I could smell the wet mud
And lingering roses in a cactus garden.
With you, I could fight the entire world
With more confidence and courage.
With you, my deserted life could bloom
Like a flower and my emotions started
Dancing like a fountain in the garden
For the music of your love.
With you, all else seems irrelevant!

How much I missed you

If you could come here,
I would have hugged you tight,
Cried out all my frozen tears,
Rubbed my forehead on your supporting shoulders,
Kissed your beautiful eyes,
Laid in your lap,
And told you,
How much I missed you,
Every day, every moment…